so like, I’d seen a large part of Colony Collapse or read about it in parts and such
but I finally watched it all the way through and can I just -
GOB spends a whole evening in a manic haze telling stories to people who aren’t awake to hear him.
he has a really fun night and immediately goes to pop a roofie for no reason whatsoever, because his life is a regular cycle of being ashamed of himself.
someone asks him what he wants and it reduces him to a babbling terror fit.
he can’t deal with the people who do want to love him because he has no clue what that looks like. but then he has the chance to dismiss the first real connection he’s made with someone, and to pretend that he’s figuratively/literally making love to himself as usual, which would save him embarrassment and let him continue to run away from anything real.
and he can’t.
and then I cried and never stopped.